A survivor story
written by Maria
My story has been so painful that it causes me so many problems.
Although I think about suicide, I wouldn’t do it because I’m a coward.
I cry on a daily basis. I barely sleep and I don’t eat right.
My mother allowed her second husband to rape me when I was four, then she covered it up for many years. Then she would get paid money from men to have sex with me for many years.
She never went to jail. She pretends that she the victim.
Those rapes finally ended when I was 9 years old.
By then I was angry, mad, hurt and so many other things, that I can’t even keep a man.
I was raped again in 1988 and got pregnant. I gave my baby up for adoption and I have such a hole in me that I don’t even know what to do with all of this.